Hey There!

Hey There! Have you missed me? Have you even truly noticed that I have been absent for 4 years? Probably not but I don't really care so I am going to move along with this. I know your first question is where in the world have I been? Rewind back to my last post in 2013 where all I did was work at the bank, well unfortunately not too much has really seemed to have changed in my life but in case you missed it ill give you the update.. In December of 2013 I found out that I was 6 weeks pregnant along with being newly pregnant when I went to my first ultrasound they found an ovarian cyst on my right ovary. The cyst had began to grow along with the baby, fast forward to being 13 weeks pregnant my ovarian cyst had twisted and they were unable to see if my baby was safe. Thankfully my son was okay however they had to remove my right ovary and right tube all while being pregnant mind you! That was really rough and i had to give myself estrogen pills for quite sometime during my pregnancy. Towards the end of my pregnancy I developed severe Precampsia and my son had to be taken via an emergency c-section 6 weeks early.. Today my son is 3 years old and is doing extremely well considering everything that has occurred. 

I have been quite lonely here lately things haven't been going to swell in the love world for Justin and I. Lets just say that I work all day everyday except for Sunday while he does whatever he wants to do and often times takes James and stays at his grandmothers while I am left all alone in this crappy apartment. I am not married in any way shape or form and honestly I don't have any intentions of ever even getting engaged again in my life just trying to save myself from some major heartbreak. Not like that could help me with the problems that I have wrong in my life. Love do i truly believe in love yes and no I believe more in heartache than love seems im still pretty cold shouldered about love and its been like 7 years since I was engaged.